Day One

I wrote this the day I left sitting on the plane. I swear I always fall for your type…but this will be the last time I ever do.

Day one and already I feel like iv lost someone…or something. Was it The fuel to my fire or maybe it was the bullet to my gun. I feel like the moon without a sun a river where the water doesn’t run. I’m not totally empty but it was the sweetest taboo when she was with me and everything feels pointless to do when your alone I guess nothing feels like it’s worth it if your sharing victory on your own. It’s like I’m looking to the stands at my game and seeing no one else to witness my fame. I’m running without a finish-line this could go on forever, all I want is you we’re two birds of a feather. You could be my patient and I’ll be the doctor or you can be the cop and I’ll be the robber. Whatever your case is I could be the lawyer we’ll keep the situation hot like steam to water. If this is day one I hope number two doesn’t come. I couldn’t even go on knowing I’ve left someone. I could reminisce about the times we had, about the times she was happy and those times when she was mad, about those good times and the bad but nothing will ever replace her presence…as a matter of fact. I think I… Already… Yeah I think I… Already… Ain’t that crazy… This is just day one…

Change and Struggle

You can stay changing with the wind everyday but I’ll stay a steady course going on my way. It’s not even that our paths are so different it’s just that when your heart is talking you don’t care to listen. I understand the difference from dreams to reality but some true ideal worlds u can conquer realities fatality so i don’t understand why ur here sitting beside me it’s torture to find you’ve decided things so silently. It can’t ever be a partnership if u make it a one sided dictatorship to be honest with politics I really don’t give a shit. But I do care about what’s fair, about what your thinking of when you start to stare, and about loves ending and how we could get there. Call me young and naive but I will always believe that as long as it’s you and me there is nothing that we couldn’t possibly achieve. Cause we are that harmonious balance and that untouchable talent. For that reason I keep pushing even if I feel like I am losing. Cause in the end the sound of your heart is so soothing and I would do anything just to be there next to you, but who am I fooling… The wind changed already.

Exclusively for You

…because perception is everything and what is out of site is out of mind. I wrote this after she said I am too kind. But I’d never do more than that with another woman. I hate waiting but I’d stand here forever Through cold nights and stormy weather If it meant one day we would see each other I’d walk through fire and winters wind All the way to the earths end If it meant I could see you again And I’d never let go I’d love you until we both grew old Cause when I’m with you we put the world on hold I hated waking up in the morning from bed But I’d do it just to watch you peacefully resting your head And I’d smile and kiss your lips I couldn’t imagine it getting any better than this What’s happiness if not smiling for no apparent reason This is an angels gift If it meant going to hell and back I’d do it every day just keep you from being sad And I’d do anything for you even if it meant overcoming my fears just to keep you from shedding any tears Cause I never wanted to see your heart in two I’d do it all exclusively for you I could hold my breath until I went blue Its just when I’m without you I’m nothing but a lost fool I’d risk it all lose it all just so I could catch you when you fall I’d drop everything So I could be there when you call Is this the love in me you saw? You told me my kindness was perceiving But nothing is deceiving about what I’m feeling If only you knew its everything for you that I do I never imagined me doing this Cause I hated putting it all at risk I guess this is how if feels when love becomes true I’d do it all…cause my love is exclusively for you.

Pursuing Fate and Inevitability

I can’t say I have truly lived all of life’s hardships but I do confide in them. When it comes down to it, without those moments in life that become the most disconsolate you’d never know what it was like to suffer or cry. Sure I’d like to always bask in happiness but during that time…during that very second when you look down at your tears with understanding and gain that strength to keep pushing life becomes this brilliant challenge. That fire strikes in your heart and your passion to pursue becomes tenacious. Sometimes it’s what drives people to take another step no matter how heavy the weight is on their shoulders. It’s what lets you stand for something and not fall for anything. But I dare you to live without hardship in this world of yin and yang. I dare you stop moving because everything became too hard. Life is full of obstacles, so why would you ever let one stop you. “I am the master of my fate: I am the captain of my soul.” - William Ernest Henley