I don't need your approval for what I do or what I wear. I am justified by my own unique actions so g'head n stare. What I call my life isn't about to conform and be a prisoner I'm workin with all my negatives to make a better picture. Rather my life be the main event than the previews before the feature and thats all food for thought I hope you can swallow that on your leisure...

Dont Fall

Don’t let yourself fall cause it’ll never work. She’s just frontin and I don’t wanna get hurt. If I catch myself slippin I’ll just take a couple steps back Shes just gotta understand that I don’t wanna get attached. What’s the use of saying anything? Cause I know if I do I’m going to miss everything. I could just look from afar and never have to get close. I don’t even have to be emotional about it, you know the heart is where it hurts the most. But I always find myself thinking iv found the one and making the greatest mistakes that I never learn from. Even if I got a lecture about how this girl doesn’t belong in the picture I’ll still trip and fall on the line I never saw. Or didn’t care to see the words “don’t cross” never occurred to me. That’s why I say don’t let yourself fall cause it’ll never work. She’s just fontin and I don’t want to get hurt. If I catch myself slippin I’ll just take a couple steps back. Shes just gotta understand that I don’t want to get attached. I hate fightin emotions when I always fail cause I still believe in love and old fairy tales. Why did she even have to kiss me and smile at all, now I’m stuck on a girl that I barely know at all. What’s all this I’m feeling after the way she touched me that evening, I couldn’t find the meaning. I have to get a grip cause I think I’m the only one who wants a relationship. Sometimes i wish i could hand all these emotions off where’s my secretary, it’s only been a month since I met her late February. But it was all just temporary and what I felt wasn’t really necessary. I still cried when she left and my conscience won’t ever let me forget. She was gone like “let’s jet set”. That’s why I say don’t let yourself fall cause it’ll never work. She’s just frontin and I don’t want to get hurt. If I catch myself slippin I’ll just take a couple steps back. She’s just gotta understand that I don’t want to get attached. I woke up today got dressed to go on my way. She tried to pull me back to bed and i kissed her on the head. Told her I gotta leave it’s been fun and don’t worry about me. There’s parts of this story that I do t want to read. I gotta go before it starts and before I begin. Iv been here before and I know how it’s gunna end. Keep falling for your type hoping that it’ll turn out alright. So I’ll step away before I make a few decisions that won’t turn out right. And she told me “I would catch you if you fall cause we’re gunna make this work. I’m not frontin and I don’t want you to get hurt. If you catch yourself slippin I’ll always have your back. And I would understand if you don’t want to get attached. But if you never let go of the past how do you tend to the future and what’s the use of falling in love when you always try to change fates picture. Are you still going to leave? Because your heart is safe with me. It’s not gunna be another bad dream so come back here and sleep.” So I locked door and took my car keys.

Change and Struggle

You can stay changing with the wind everyday but I’ll stay a steady course going on my way. It’s not even that our paths are so different it’s just that when your heart is talking you don’t care to listen. I understand the difference from dreams to reality but some true ideal worlds u can conquer realities fatality so i don’t understand why ur here sitting beside me it’s torture to find you’ve decided things so silently. It can’t ever be a partnership if u make it a one sided dictatorship to be honest with politics I really don’t give a shit. But I do care about what’s fair, about what your thinking of when you start to stare, and about loves ending and how we could get there. Call me young and naive but I will always believe that as long as it’s you and me there is nothing that we couldn’t possibly achieve. Cause we are that harmonious balance and that untouchable talent. For that reason I keep pushing even if I feel like I am losing. Cause in the end the sound of your heart is so soothing and I would do anything just to be there next to you, but who am I fooling… The wind changed already.