Notes on the Wall

If my wall were full of notes they'd say look out for me watch out for me. Whats the code to life and whats up with people who ain't blind but still can't see? They'd say one plus one equals you plus me the fact that I rather add you should be so proud of me. But we're all still ignorant...Tomorrow is a new day but today I'm livin. Those who give up that life must really be tripin. It's not that hard but you still catch people stealin. I guess they made up their mind between hell and heaven. They'd say if my words made sense they'd pick up a dime and maybe make some dollars the rest of the time. Get to provide for my fam while I'm still in my prime. Seconds are tickin and I'm running out of time. Speakin of runnin I gotta stop her from doin laps in my mind. But I bet if she made me her desire she'd really get tired. I can't stand to be in the fire but I'd put out the flames if we pulled an all-nighter. That note is for you, and if you wanna find its all true you can call me up and tell me your comin through. I'm always ready when she's ready you can check that note too. I'm fillin my walls with notes and I don't mean to be rude, but in this one I wrote my family comes first, yeah that's the song that I grew up to. So whats your move, I'm being real dude, cause there's only one way I know how to act so do what you do and jot down a note or two. Those who never learn always play the fool. If my wall were full of notes they'd say live your life to the fullest but even the fullest glass can leave some feelin undernourished. By that I mean unhappy. Like you can never satisfy me happy. But Imma always appreciate what I already have see. You might wanna read the fine print on that note first cause when worst comes to worst not knowing where to where to turn really hurts and it pains me to write it but when it all goes silent you can look up and find the lesson inside it. Cause it all happens for a reason, "Do you care that your still breathn?" I wrote that note to myself cause that's just something I felt. And that answer is yes, do the fucken best and don't ever lose yourself among the rest. If my wall were full of notes they'd say feelings on your face change daily, but those in your heart don't and if you ever feel like love is failing don't ever lose hope. You have one life to live and that's the realist quote I ever wrote. Make life worth it because we all deserve it, crazy how a simple decision gets you judged by those who ain't perfect. And this feelins got me nervous, makin biased decisions leave too many grey areas on the surface. But if you wanted to then go your way, I'm just sayin I can't be walkin in circles everyday. And that's a note to self that I'm puttin on my wall. We're not all born into wealth but there's a bit a royalty in us all.

A Good Man

I take my strides with confidence never arrogance, but I won't deny my young age or my ignorance. All thats just common sense and I'll be damned if any of it becomes past tense. Thats just where I stand and just as my ancestors made reprimands Of all those bad things. I will become a better man... A good man... Or may my soul end up in "No Man's Land". So I supposed you'd understand if I don't belong in a Kings Throne because I want to meet your every demand (as my woman). And I'd make it my purpose to meet all your desires. I'll be like your pleasure for hire. Don't worry its all on me and we can make it an all nighter, I can go one round or nine like a prize fighter. Have you on fire and shakin like a spin dryer. Callin into work sick tomorrow cause you're too tired. Go ahead...call me a liar. I'll Surprise you with my proper sex etiquette, cutin off the phones before we get into it. I'd pay attention so I wouldn't forget any of those sensual places that make you wet. And if your wondering, yeah...I do know my alphabet. So what's your preference? Cause what comes next will be like early presents. That unexpected gift that'll fill in the blank at the end of your sentence. And have you making noises like them girls that play tennis. Oh and I'm down for any fetish... Lets talk out what we have in common so we can work out those other things like unsolved problems. Agree to what works and make me that list. I'll check em off twice so there isn't one I'd miss, there isn't a limit on where I'd put my lips. So Where would you like me to kiss? We can cuddle after... And in the mornin I'd make you breakfast in bed or would you do that for me instead? We could trade places like usher said. Dinner and a movie how would you do me? I could lay back and watch while you try to find all my spots. Let me reminisce about past times and how I made you mine. What makes you tick and what makes you smile and what makes you go quiet for a while. I'd own you as you own me cause its a confidence thing you see. I'd tell you "You'r the only one I need". As my hands run through your hair ever...so...softly. Just call me a good man cause I would never withstand to leave like a one night stand. Even if falling for you is all unplanned I'd stay and be a better man.

Day One

I wrote this the day I left sitting on the plane. I swear I always fall for your type…but this will be the last time I ever do.

Day one and already I feel like iv lost someone…or something. Was it The fuel to my fire or maybe it was the bullet to my gun. I feel like the moon without a sun a river where the water doesn’t run. I’m not totally empty but it was the sweetest taboo when she was with me and everything feels pointless to do when your alone I guess nothing feels like it’s worth it if your sharing victory on your own. It’s like I’m looking to the stands at my game and seeing no one else to witness my fame. I’m running without a finish-line this could go on forever, all I want is you we’re two birds of a feather. You could be my patient and I’ll be the doctor or you can be the cop and I’ll be the robber. Whatever your case is I could be the lawyer we’ll keep the situation hot like steam to water. If this is day one I hope number two doesn’t come. I couldn’t even go on knowing I’ve left someone. I could reminisce about the times we had, about the times she was happy and those times when she was mad, about those good times and the bad but nothing will ever replace her presence…as a matter of fact. I think I… Already… Yeah I think I… Already… Ain’t that crazy… This is just day one…

Change and Struggle

You can stay changing with the wind everyday but I’ll stay a steady course going on my way. It’s not even that our paths are so different it’s just that when your heart is talking you don’t care to listen. I understand the difference from dreams to reality but some true ideal worlds u can conquer realities fatality so i don’t understand why ur here sitting beside me it’s torture to find you’ve decided things so silently. It can’t ever be a partnership if u make it a one sided dictatorship to be honest with politics I really don’t give a shit. But I do care about what’s fair, about what your thinking of when you start to stare, and about loves ending and how we could get there. Call me young and naive but I will always believe that as long as it’s you and me there is nothing that we couldn’t possibly achieve. Cause we are that harmonious balance and that untouchable talent. For that reason I keep pushing even if I feel like I am losing. Cause in the end the sound of your heart is so soothing and I would do anything just to be there next to you, but who am I fooling… The wind changed already.

Exclusively for You

…because perception is everything and what is out of site is out of mind. I wrote this after she said I am too kind. But I’d never do more than that with another woman. I hate waiting but I’d stand here forever Through cold nights and stormy weather If it meant one day we would see each other I’d walk through fire and winters wind All the way to the earths end If it meant I could see you again And I’d never let go I’d love you until we both grew old Cause when I’m with you we put the world on hold I hated waking up in the morning from bed But I’d do it just to watch you peacefully resting your head And I’d smile and kiss your lips I couldn’t imagine it getting any better than this What’s happiness if not smiling for no apparent reason This is an angels gift If it meant going to hell and back I’d do it every day just keep you from being sad And I’d do anything for you even if it meant overcoming my fears just to keep you from shedding any tears Cause I never wanted to see your heart in two I’d do it all exclusively for you I could hold my breath until I went blue Its just when I’m without you I’m nothing but a lost fool I’d risk it all lose it all just so I could catch you when you fall I’d drop everything So I could be there when you call Is this the love in me you saw? You told me my kindness was perceiving But nothing is deceiving about what I’m feeling If only you knew its everything for you that I do I never imagined me doing this Cause I hated putting it all at risk I guess this is how if feels when love becomes true I’d do it all…cause my love is exclusively for you.